I Feel Better
“I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change…
I wanna get better, better, better, better,
I wanna get better...”
- I Wanna Get Better by Bleachers
At the beginning of my healing journey, I listened to this song on repeat, over and over again, while I was on my treadmill. Most mornings I didn’t have enough motivation to actually put in my contacts, brush my hair back into a braid or ponytail or put on leggings. It was enough effort just to put my sports bra and sneakers on.
Still in my pajamas, glasses on, hair a tangled bed head mess, I’d slowly start walking on the treadmill. Sometimes I committed myself to walk for at least three repetitions of the song or at least ten minutes. Other days, after a few minutes, I was running fast yelling “I wanna get better!!” on the top of my lungs.
“I wanna get better” was my simple mantra that I repeated in my mind throughout the day. I was so motivated to heal, not just for myself, but to learn how, so that I could share it with my family and friends. If I could get better, I was determined to share it with anyone who would listen.
A few days ago, I was not feeling well. I was anxious, moody, tired and irritable and I knew I would be getting my period any day. Through my foggy brain, I was alert enough to remember to eat the most nourishing foods possible, get outside, get into nature, go for a walk, and get some good quality sleep. I planned to continue to hydrate and to relax as much as possible throughout the weekend.
Then I listened to that inner voice, who reminded me that I was not alone. I reached out for help and received love and support from my friends and family. My friends reminded me to increase my foundational supplements, enjoy some chocolate, go for a run, do some yoga, drink something warm and grounding like ginger tea or golden milk with some CBD mixed into it. My family supported me by making dinner, giving me hugs and helping with the house chores.
Sometimes in order to balance our mind and body, we need to balance and boost our emotions with help from others. We need encouragement and motivation to remind us that what we are going through is temporary and to help us shift to a positive success mindset. Our spiritual and social connections are key to our healing process.
I feel better these days, most days, both mentally and physically, than I felt most of my life. Years ago, I felt broken and I knew that I wanted to change. I have experienced great healing, and at the same time, I am learning to embrace my cracks and imperfections. It is my passion and desire to support anyone who wants to get better and who needs some love, guidance, encouragement and support on their healing journey.